viernes, 22 de marzo de 2013

A walk into reality

Real life is a bitch. I said it.

Recently I have found more and more opportunities to take photos. I have tried to expand my horizon by trying different kind of photography. Also all these events where I go and the people I meet, leads me to new roads and chances. I'm still a little fish, swimming in the big ocean, adventuring by myself. I have to admit that its kind of scary, specially for me. I'm naturally a shy person when I first meet someone. I used to hate my shyness when I was younger, I forced my self to not be that way and be an outstanding person. As a result I was even more shy because I wasn't being myself, I was just acting and feeling uncomfortable. As I accepted my personality, I begun to be more and more friendly, and of course it helped me a lot to do an exchange student program, it opened my horizons and ways of thinking. But there are parts of yourself that you just can't change and have to learn to live with it. Now I actually really like my shy clara when I meet someone new, its part of who I am and its not bad. I am also kind and really interested in meeting new people even when I feel awkward, weird or not cool enough. Now that I am meeting TONS of new people, this shy clara is now fighting with the adventurous one. I want to talk more, I want to know more, I want to meet more, but I just feel nervous. Now I try to remember that its a part of me that I accept and like, and things go a lot more easier. As always, kindness is my way of living, my philosophy. Being kind will lead you to meet kind people, and it all works out.
I have felt a lot lately, that feeling of "wow, I'm living my life, MY own life" when suddenly you just feel a tiny ant in a big world, and you realize you have to work hard for what you want, and then you feel nervous but so happy because you are fighting and working hard for your dreams. Its all a game, and we have to win!.
I love those kind of stories that I will remember with love in the future, the ones when you remember how you walked home for hours just to save every cent you could used in transportation but you saved it to something else. My father told me how he use to eat cereal almost every day  in collage, so he could take my mother to a nice dinner every saturday. All those sacrifices that makes you appreciate things more and remember all with love. I really think everyone needs a time of austerity so we can appreciate more things in life. Its funny but I see all this kind of fun, we have to see life as a joke and keep moving. Lets not loose hope!. I know a lot of times its not easy, but we really have to try.
Here are some photos of the recent events and concerts I have gone, enjoyyyy.

Oliver Huntemann  

 David Guetta

domingo, 10 de marzo de 2013

Let's spend the day doing nothing

We where suppose to be doing homework.
We where suppose to be doing an assay of 1500 words for friday. 
We where suppose to do university paper work.
Who cares, we don't.

sábado, 9 de marzo de 2013

Open your mind

Almost all my life I have seen my city as a cage for me. I imagined me as a wild and colorful bird wanting to fly away and to discover different skies. But I was a prissioner of this cage of mine full of  black birds, who didn't shared my colors. Me, always being sad, always being angry about these other people in my city, everyone thinking the same stupid ideas, dressing the same clothes, talking the same empty things, and me being different, and because of that always being alone and scared to show my true colors. I grew up being mad about living here, and because of my madness I saw everyone as the same type of person. The good thing is that because of my loneliness I was introduced to photography to express the feelings that I felt, and it helped me a lot.

16 years old Clara.

The thing that I wished the most in the world was to scape and never return. Escape to the place where I would be understood, where I could find people like me, who shared my ideas, being different and unique. Then I found a way out, by going to an exchange program, I would be free just for a year. My year in Brazil was full of adventures. Life showed me what friendship really means, and gave the most especial friends which I could conserve for the rest of my life. The kind of friends that become family. 

Saquarema, Brasil.

My return to México was a way back to the cage but with a different mind. Traveling changes your heart, it really does. The beginning was difficult, I was back in the same city full of the same people. Robots with plastic soul. 
But then, because of all the things I learned in Brazil, I thought that maybe this place wasn't full of these kind of people, it couldn't be!. I opened my mind, I opened my heart, and acted kind as one of my now sister tough me how to be in life. Be kind and life will respond to you in the same way. Be yourself, always be true to your heart and ideas, and people as you will come to you. So I did.
 Life started to be different, and of course it wasn't that simple. It took me a lot of tears, but at the end I had new eyes for this place. I started to loose my fear to meet people, I started to learn that anywhere you go, you will find millions of kinds of persons, with stories, dreams and ideas just as I had. The act of sharing and kindness became my religion, and so people started to be kind to me, life was responding me. 
Now I find more and more people to share ideas and lovely conversations. I find new friends and kind people. My dreams are becoming real, there are even amazing things happening that I didn't even dreamed of. I realized that all this time I had the key of the cage that was builded by myself. Now I understand that I had to pass that time of frustration to become the person I am today, and there is still plenty of things to learn. 

Now, I see the sky and is full of colorful birds, all different and beautiful, and I fell so curious to meet them. 
I didn't liked to call this place home, but now I do. This in the city where I learned to be true and leal to myself. This is the place where I grew up, and learned all the things to become the girl I am today.  
My heart is still hungry to meet new places, but because this is the way I am, wild and curious. 

Now I am happy to see that I can fly away from here, not escaping but just because I want to. Then I will return to this city with a smile and I will remember it with love. I opened my mind, opened my heart, and life opened it self to me.

lunes, 4 de marzo de 2013

Where we belong

Hello there. To the new people reading, welcome to my blog, I'm Clara Arámburo a young photographer hungry to live my life and get to know this amazing world. I live in Mexico, but I don't exactly have a place where I can call my home yet. I'm still a nomad looking for a place to belong and feel happy.
 For those who where following before, I've decided now to write on english, so more people can read this blog and for me to get in touch with hearts from all over the world, for you to look at my pictures and maybe hope to share the ideas that I have, the feelings that are moving my body, give inspiration to other artist and hopefully help in someway to someone by reading my words. 
Let me just tell you that I definitely don't have the best grammar, I live in Mexico, where we speak spanish. My hole life I have went to english lessons and practice it for a year in Brazil, talking to international people... Maybe I'll write one day about my adventures in Brazil where I found my heart. Besides that, my hole english education is based on watching youtube videos, reading blogs and reading books on english. If I have some grammar mistakes, sorry but I really don't care. I'm here to open my heart, be myself and of course I will try my best to not make any mistake (auto corrector really helps). Since my best friends are from different parts from the world, I have found that I can express my heart better on english... or maybe not better but I prefer it. Even if I'm not a perfect english speaker or writer I do my best.

So this is me, I'm Clara. For all those new readers, welcome to my blog, Where we belong :)