An adventurous life

Recently, with the new year coming, the dreams and resolutions growing fresh and plenty in our heads, I wanted to share here my thoughts and my own dreams for this year.

For the last month, my life which I felt it was a big mess, has turned into a routine full of excitement. Yeah, at first I was confused too. So, I got a job as a waitress in a coffee house where its really busy and full of people almost all the time. This is actually my first job as a waitress and my first days were chaotic. Let me tell you the people who work on busy restaurants deserves a lot of respect!. So many stress and talent to make things good and fast. And well, this is not something I was prepared to, but I have been improving more and more. 

I'm planing to save every sent that I gain working, to go on a trip by my own to Southeast Asia. But for now, I have to live the time that not a lot of people like to have, the waiting part. I have to save all this money so I can have a 6 months or more trip.
 I use to hate try to be patient, I always wanted things fast, but now I feel different. My brother was recently lucky enough to have a trip paid by his work to go to France and England. I told my mom how happy I felt he had an opportunity like this, since he hasn't traveled as much as he wanted. She told me "He is having his own adventures now, you had your's too". My immediate thought was  "I am still having my adventures!". Not because someone its not traveling means that you can't have adventures. Life its an adventure itself. 

I searched for the first time a job, I had for the first time a job interview, I am learning and moving my feelings everyday being a waitress, I dream things and fight for them, I appreciate little things in life, I live adventures everyday, because there are everywhere. You just have to be aware and appreciate things, enjoy them.
An adventure can be try something new for the first time, dare to talk someone you like, be angry when you deserve to be angry, smile and enjoy the sunshine when you feel down, dance to the new song you just discovered, feel tired and proud for your hard work, laugh at your terrible accent in a new language you are learning.
Of course I'm so looking forward to have the adventures I dream of when I will travel to Southeast Asia next year, but in the meanwhile I want to appreciate my life in every phase.

I have 3 resolutions for this new year:
1) To be brave
2) Work hard
3) Live life fully

For an awesome 2014.

Clara.

Golden Slovakia

Parts of my diary I wrote while I was in Slovakia.

“I am in Slovakia. i am seating where it use to be Ivana's and her sister Zuzka room. There are many books, posters, neckless and earrings hanging on the wall, photos of her and Vlado her boyfriend. They look so young and happy. There is also a piano, clothes everywhere, different things that doesn’t match and everything its a big, colorful and beautiful mess. This is Ivana’s rooms and I can feel it even with my eyes closed. Even if it has change a lot because now it works as a storage room, it still feels like her. Its a comfortable, messy place full of personality. Its perfect, I feel like home here. She is now seating on the computer with Zuzka and her friend Jitka planing what we will do in the Pohoda music festival we are going on the weekend.

“From the window I can hear the river that passes besides the house. Slovakia its a magic place, and is even more magical the little village where Ivana lives, Rudñany, including the surroundings and the neighbor villages like Poráč. Its full of little and big mountains. You can see green everywhere, and now that the Sumer is here, the air its hot and there are wild flowers everywhere. Old abandoned buildings and gypsies in the surroundings add personality to the place even if some people doesn’t like them. I found it really interesting. The woods are beautiful. Nature its part of everyone’s life here. Ivana tells me about types and names of plants, how they recollect some of them to make tea. Little traditions as going to pick up mushrooms at 5am, that can seem normal for some people, are magical for me. Walking in the woods and findings berries its my favorite thing, their flavor was so explosive in the mouth, so much taste in such a little thing! It brings me back to the past when I lived in Saquarema, Brazil, my little and beautiful village full of nature, and fresh air. If I ever have a family, I am sure I want to raise it in a place like here.”

“I can see Ivana’s life everywhere. I am in the city where she grew up, where she became a crazy teenager, where she fall in love. I can see her in the city, in the restaurants, in the woods. I imagine her kissing Vlado hiding in the trees and holding hands, talking with her sister on the bus on their way home, seating in the school and looking at the window to the woods, going to the supermarket and choosing her favorite food, having long conversations on a ·girls nights” with her friends. I can see the life that she had, and I think how lucky she was to grew up here. I think that now in the present this is a little part of her life, and I will see more of her life in Edinburgh, where she studies and live now.”

“My days in Slovakia passes slow but beautiful. We have walks in the woods, into the beautiful nature. I can hear the silence and my breath, it relaxes me and makes me have a clear mind.”

“We went to Pohoda festival. It was my first time going to a music festival and I loved it so much!. The last three days where full of emotions, all the time something to do, something to see. I discovered new bands and really talented musicians. I felled even more in love of the music. There are a million special things about watching and hearing it live, to see how the musicians got lost in their music, their bodies where possessed and where moved by music. You could see how passionated they where to performed their work and truly feel the music in their bodies. I saw Tom Yorke dancing crazy. Nick Cave and the bad seeds coutivating people with their beautiful lyrics. I saw a couple crying and dancing slow like their bodies where one, it was such a personal moment that I almost felt like if it was prohibit to look at them. 

I danced like crazy, like those nights when I was in México alone in my room and wanted to go out to dance, so I danced alone with loud music. I danced even when I couldn’t dance more, when my feet hurt so much and my body said no, but I couldn’t stop. I wanted to revenge all those lonely nights on my room. The music and lights around me possessed me, and I didn’t said no. In the concerts I closed my eyes and felt the music. In those moments you have to loose yourself to really enjoy it."

"Later we heard on the news that there where more than 30,000 people, and everyone was different. You could see young and old people, families and friends, all joining to share the magic of music. It was funny how we all lived those three days like a small community. It wasn’t weird to see someone walking and brushing their teeth, walking in towels and flip-flops to take a shower. There was so many types of bodies and people, that no body cared what you where wearing or how you looked like. Everyone was there to have fun. "

"We where complaining all the time, with cold nights and hot days. The weather changed all the time, it could rain really hard and suddenly the sun would go out and be really hot. It was an adventure going to the bathroom, they stinked so horrible!. But we didn’t cared so much, your feet could hurt, but you where listening to Tom York live. You could have so much cold, and danced to be warm. it was hard to sleep in the ground and with all the noise of the camping area, but hearing the people laughing and the music from far away, felt magical. We laughed of the “uncomfortable” life we had, because it wasn’t really that important to us, we where having the time of our lives."

"One of the things I enjoyed the most is that everyone was dancing like no one was watching, because no one cared, we where there to have fun."

"I will never forget that night we danced until we saw the sunrise, to see Nick Cave life and watching the couple kissing, to cry listening to the Bratislava Orchestra playing The Moldau River , dancing the choreography with ivana to Atoms For peace song. A music festival its definitely an experience everyone have to live in life.”

I wish I took more photos while I was there. 

Now I dream to go back and document properly the experience and magic of going to a music Festival. 

Being in Slovakia was great. Every country, every city, every place have a unique thing to offer, you just have to observe. When you travel,  open your mind, open your heart.